Blog watch report
Report compiled on 200606 2241GMT (+0800).
Report as follows:
A significant percentage of blogs on the watchlist is registering an increase in chatter over the last 24hrs. Chatter is emotional in content, and negative in character. Subject is apparently focused on future academic related undertakings. Report concludes that bloggers are emotionally affected by University entrance in the near future.
Report ends.
While unsurprising, it amazes me that my fellow bloggers (across varied academic backgrounds and aspirations) are ‘in the dumps’. To be honest, I nearly posted something equivalent in content. As it is written when I’m nearly half asleep and influenced by the posts of my fellow bloggers, I decided not to post it this morning. The contents are so unlike me, yet very much like me. It’s not good to contribute to the sense of helplessness and loneliness that has been spreading around, especially when it’s written in one of my darkest moods. However, I’m extremely relieved to be able to let it out and tell someone (even when the only reader was me). While prepared to accept whatever that is bound to happen, I am not ready to give up on my hopes yet. It is so near, yet so far out of reach.
I have given up once, and I am determined not to let history repeat itself again. I have walked down the least traveled road so frequently by my own, that I might just get used to the whole business. The time is coming soon, to grit my teeth and brace for it. Being an optimist, at least I have minimal emotional baggage. I’m already practically divorced from the rest of my family plus I won’t have to be separated from the ’special’ one, because I don’t have any! And from the look of things, might just probably never will for some time to come.
